longingfreesia: (Feeling Modest)
I've been pretty quiet for a while. Most of you know why, but I felt I should write a little update for everyone.

I started therapy last week and I feel it's going to help me a lot.
This week I've mostly been focusing on trying to get back to normal things, just one step at a time. Making small simple meals, sewing small things, spending a bit of time with different people, but also making sure to give myself some me-time too.

I feel like I'm having to re-learn how to love myself again and to be confident with who I am. I've still got a long way to go, but this is a start.

I just want to say thank you to our family and friends who have helped myself and Yuma during this time. It's been pretty stressful for the both of us, but things are starting to become better.

I'm hoping after the new year, I'll be able to re-start my small business again, but I'm going to see how I feel. I do feel a little antsy about it, since with me not working, money has been a little tighter than usual for us this last month or so, but our families have said they'll give us extra support until I feel ready to start the business back up again.
longingfreesia: (This is Slightly Worrying)
*Kotori had arrived at SAI for her first therapy session with Noriko. Yuma had offered to go with her for support, but she had decided to push herself and face it on her own. Though, as she headed towards the office she'd been directed towards, she began to feel extremely nervous.

'Kattobing, Kotori. You can do this' she thought to herself as she reached the office door. With a deep breath, she raised her hand up and knocked on it a few times.*
longingfreesia: (Feeling Modest)
[Synopsis: A visit from Judai and Asami gives Kotori the courage to start moving forward with accepting who she is.]

Stepping Forward
longingfreesia: (Discontent and Worry)
[OOC: This story is backdated to around mid-September. It was a much bigger project than anticipated and it took me a while to write everything up. It's 23 pages long, with 4 chapters and an epilogue, but I hope you all enjoy it.
I'll summarise some of the important points here as well.]


Yuma & Kotori's Forest Adventure!

ExpandSummary of Important Parts )
longingfreesia: (Pleasant Coversations)
*Kotori is sat at a table outside a cafe in the Domino City Plaza with a cup of coffee set in front of her.
Maybe she arranged to meet you here for a chat.
Maybe you were in the area, spotted her and have come over to say hi.
Or maybe you've come for a drink yourself, but the cafe is incredibly busy and the only free seat is at Kotori's table.

Whatever the situation, Kotori is free for a chat about anything!*
longingfreesia: (Feeling Modest)
It's hard to believe that I'll be turning 20 on Sunday.

I'm thinking of having a little get-together that day. Just me, Yuma and our friends if they're free.
Yuto. Yuya. I know I don't know Yugo too well, but, I'm happy for you to bring him along with you too, if he'd like to come.

It'll be a rather low-key get-together, but we can play some games and watch some movies. I'll also be preparing a lot of party food and snacks for everyone.
longingfreesia: (Happy Smiles)
So I've spent the last few days in Heartland visiting my parents and helping Yuma go through some stuff at his old house, since Akari-san wanted him sort through it.

I talked to my parents and finally told them about everything. About Mr. Heartland and about my powers. It was a lot for them to take in, but they both love me and accept me for who I am. I know they also kept the truth about my actual father hidden to protect me, but I feel now this is all out, I'm that much more closer to them, especially my dad. He sacrificed a lot just to make sure mom and I were happy and safe. He stepped up when Heartland didn't. To me, he's more my real dad. He always will be.
I acknowledge I'm related to Heartland by blood, but I'll never consider him a real father.
He's out of my life for good anyway.

With that done, I want to focus on the positives and the future as much as I can.
Yuma and I more or less have the apartment to ourselves now. Haru-san moved back permanently to Heartland and Akari-san only stays when she needs to be in Domino City for her job.
She's still helping us financially, as are my parents from this weekend, until Yuma and I can stand on our own feet.

We now have a spare room in the apartment, so I've turned it into a working space for my fashion design work. It's so much better to have the extra room! It got a little too cluttered trying to work in a space shared by both me and Yuma.
The room also doubles as a guest room, for when Akari-san, or any of our friends stay over.

My small fashion design business is going well too. I've had a lot of custom orders recently for spring and summer wear lately! It's been really exciting working on it.

Overall... it's been a tough and emotional weekend... and last few months, but I really feel positive about the future. About my business, me and Yuma, everything!
longingfreesia: (Pleasant Coversations)
It's been great getting to catch up with my parents, especially my mom, once I found out they were okay. They actually just recently moved to a temporary apartment in Tokyo until it's safe for them to move back to Heartland. My mom wants me to come and visit them soon, so we can catch up properly.

Though, despite knowing that my parents are okay, I still occasionally suffer with attacks of anxiety, especially at night. It's like a feeling of dread, like something bad happened or will happen. I feel so worked up I struggle to sleep when it happens and with these humid nights lately already making it difficult to sleep, it's not been very welcome.

I'd hoped it would go away now that I know mom and dad are alright, but, I guess it's just something I've been left with after the earthquake.

I also haven't told them about the discovery of my abilities yet and for now I may just keep that under wraps from them, so not to overwhelm them with too much. Besides, I still don't know much more about it, even though I've suddenly gotten a lot better at controlling it lately.

I can't help but feel like there is something I'm missing with that though...
longingfreesia: (Oh really...?)
*As the Wonder Quartet is taking place over parts of the city on the final day of the Duel Festival, Kotori has found herself at Mr. Heartland's office after he asked her to see her.
Knocking on the door beforehand to signal her arrival, she opens the door to his office when told to enter and slowly walks in.*


You asked to see me...?
longingfreesia: (Discontent and Worry)
ExpandThings to Protect )

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[Closed Event Post]
*Standing outside a rather large and fancy building, Kotori looked at it in awe, then at the card that she held in her hand in order to double check the address.
Well, this was the place.
Taking a deep breath, she began to slowly walk up to the building.*
longingfreesia: (Discontent and Worry)
ExpandLimbo )
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Closed Event

*Kotori is sitting on a bench in the park. It's quite a hot summer's day, but Kotori's attention doesn't seem to be on the wonderful weather.
She's sat looking down at her hands, looking quite deep in thought and rather anxious. Around her, there seems to be a few fluttering butterflies which, to the un-trained eye, look like normal butterflies, but to anyone with a keen eye, especially those sensitive to the supernatural, they can tell they aren't just regular butterflies. In-fact they weren't real butterflies at all and seemed to be made up of some kind of solid light.

One flutters down and lands on her hands, making Kotori give out a sigh. She knew they were appearing because of how anxious she'd been feeling and because she'd been keeping those worries to herself, but she didn't really know how to make them go away.*
longingfreesia: (Oh Yuma...)
Well, it looks like Yuma got the message. He's clean shaven once again.

He was a little bummed out about it at first. I guess it's something he's always kind of wanted, but I talked it through with him. We agreed that he should try again when he's in his mid-twenties or so and we can see what it looks like then. At least by then it'll be growing through fully.
I'm not opposed to him having a beard in the future. It'd take some getting used to, but I'm hoping it'll look a lot better on him then.
But for now I just feel it's a little too early.

In other news, my 19th birthday is next week.
Seems kind of surreal that I'll be 20 next year.
longingfreesia: (Happy Smiles)
Today I would like to announce the launch of my new website for my clothing designs!
It's taken a while to set up, as Akari-san needed to teach me some of the basic coding for it, but now I feel confidant enough to run and update the website when I need to!

[There is a link to a nicely designed website included, which appears to be named 'Little Birds' in English. It has a cute bird motif!]

'Little Birds' is my own small thing I am aiming to build-up while I am still working part-time at Castle & Castle. I am hoping that eventually it will grow into a business that I can run full-time. I will be concentrating mainly on cute themed clothing, but I am also open to do commissions on an individual basis.
The website has examples of outfits I've made, has links to my various social media accounts and also has a small online store where I'll be selling ready-made items!

Thank you so much for taking a look.
longingfreesia: (Oh really...?)
*Sitting on a bench in the park, Kotori was making full use of such an unseasonably pleasant day. With a sketchpad in her lap, she had been drawing up a few design ideas for outfits she'd like to make.

As she drew, a small commotion caught her attention. Not far from her, two young children were stood at the base of a tree, trying to shake it or jump up at the branches, trying to grab them. As she turned her attention to the branches, she could see a ball stuck in it. It was too high up for the children to reach, and their attempts at shaking the tree wasn't even budging it.
She contemplated going over to help, but even she wouldn't be able to reach the branches or shake the tree hard enough to loosen the ball.
Then it hit her, she didn't even need to do that to get the ball down for them.

From where she was sat, she focused her gaze on the ball. Slowly and gently, she used her telekinetic power to nudge the ball slightly. She kept nudging it just a bit, until the ball fell from the branches. The children, believing that the ball had fallen by itself, collected it and ran off to carry on playing their game.
Kotori smiled as she watched them run off, happy that she could help them, but also proud that she was now able to control her ability enough that she had some control on how she moved things. The training she had been receiving from SAI was really helping.*
longingfreesia: (Not Very Amused)
I am so mad about what happened to Yuma and Yuzu! How dare that guy interrupt their duel and hurt the both of them! Yuma told me he was one of the people that targeted them and Yuya a few years ago too. He better not even THINK of giving them trouble again!

I heard all the other duels that took place were also targeted in the same way. Why was that even allowed to happen in the first place!?
longingfreesia: (Happy Smiles)
I'm so happy that Yuma is currently in the top 10 for the Super Junior League rankings! I know he's been working really hard on that since it started, so I'm really proud of him for getting that far, especially since he originally graduated with not a lot of options open to him.

We were both quite busy yesterday, but we thankfully made some time to have a small date at a cafe in the late afternoon, so we celebrated both Valentine's Day and him being in the top tier rankings together.
longingfreesia: (Oh really...?)
Souha-san got in touch with me today.

The ability I have, that blew up on Christmas Eve, is linked to what seems to be traces of non-human/monster heritage. They need more time to really pinpoint exactly what it is but, for now, this is what information I have.
I can only assume it maybe like it is with Yuma and it's possibly something far enough down my family line that my parents didn't know about it.
I feel a little better knowing where the power came from now and that it's a natural part of me. So it's something I need to accept and come to terms with.

It's been a little odd to get used to and add using it to my daily routine, but I've so far tried it with smaller, non-breakable items on a regular basis. I seem to be able to push/pull and levitate items, though sometimes I can't quite control the speed I'm moving them.
I'm probably going to go by the SAI building this week and see if there is anyone there who can help me to train and practise this ability so I have some more control over it. Or even to just give me advice.

At least using it means I no longer get the headaches and dizziness. I'm able to carry on with things, like getting back to finishing Trena and Yuya's outfits I was doing for them and working on getting my website for my designs up.

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