longingfreesia | (no subject)

This is mainly a question for Shiroko-san and Ai-san, but I felt like leaving this open for others to weigh in their opinions too.

How do you live comfortably with both parts of yourself, as a hybrid?

I don't know much about my non-human side, other than I'm a demon with insect qualities. I don't know if I come from a specific line of demons, or what they would be called. My abilities and what I'm capable of I've had to explore myself, and I still do training with them once or twice a week to explore them.
So as you can imagine, I do feel very out of touch with that side of myself, where I feel much more comfortable with my human side.

I'm just not sure how to feel comfortable living not as just a human, or just a demon, but as both at the same time.

I guess I was just curious if there are other hybrids who feel this way, like they're in touch with one side more than the other, or if there are others out there who have found a way to feel more comfortable with their hybrid identity.

I just want to make sure that I feel comfortable and proud of who I am, not just for myself, but also for any children Yuma and I may have in the future too, as they wouldn't only have my demon heritage, but Yuma's Astral heritage too, so I'd want to be able to teach them to be comfortable with it and be proud of who they are.

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I'll be honest. It took me. Years? To get comfortable with myself. I'm not sure if I'm a hybrid, I think I got transfigured into an outright Succubus spirit.

But. It. Was. A lot. It took me even getting split in half into a bitchy Succubus and an overcompensating human to come to terms with myself?

And. Well. You learn to understand your needs. For me, it's that I had to well. I'm going to be upfront since we're both adults:

I need to be very sexually active due to being a Succubus and sleep around with a lot of people I trust. Which I was doing, but I need to be more than Monogamous, something my ... boyfriend, which I should fix to husband or something. And I both had to understand that I needed to be more open, and that what matters to the two of us is a deeply personal relationship of love, emotion, and caring about one another, and that sex is just a part of it.

Also. You learn quick to get rid of people when you become a duchess. Who want to corrupt you into being a huge jerk.

Uh. I don't have anything as deep as Ai.

I learned to float and uh. Accept I'm probably prone to being plural?

And use my being a fallen angel as a cash-in selling point business wise for my company?

It's about as normal to me as breathing is?

It just means I'm a bit more sexual, a little bit more evil, a little more selfish than I was in high school, but it's nothing big deal. It's just. Me?

Nothing much I can add, that Shiroko and Ai haven't, but you honestly just live with it.

Like being a Grimro is natural to me anymore, as much as being mayor or being a Roman Catholic.

"How do you juxtaposition being a demon and being a member of the faith that says demons are bad"

Well, God's got to forgive all of us at some point here, that's kind of the whole kit and kaboodle, right?