Kotori Tsukumo (nee Mizuki) (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
longingfreesia) wrote2019-11-26 10:03 pm
longingfreesia) wrote2019-11-26 10:03 pm
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*Kotori had arrived at SAI for her first therapy session with Noriko. Yuma had offered to go with her for support, but she had decided to push herself and face it on her own. Though, as she headed towards the office she'd been directed towards, she began to feel extremely nervous.
'Kattobing, Kotori. You can do this' she thought to herself as she reached the office door. With a deep breath, she raised her hand up and knocked on it a few times.*
'Kattobing, Kotori. You can do this' she thought to herself as she reached the office door. With a deep breath, she raised her hand up and knocked on it a few times.*
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I guess it probably is that uncertainty on who I am and my lack of knowledge on my demon half and I guess demons in general. It's like that part of me is a stranger I don't know much about and can't trust.
And then I tend to overthink and over-worry about everything regarding it, especially after I gained the demon form unexpectedly and how badly I reacted to it.
I'd really convinced myself that I was a danger to everyone around me.
And I guess I just feel really... worn down with all that's happened to me the last few years since discovering my abilities.
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Hrm. Let's start really small.
... And what would, right now. Please think.
Give you a reassurance. That tonight you can go home and feel comfortable with, let's say, instant cup ramen or a frozen TV dinner? Or something really easy cooking wise.
Though, as a blithe aside, it also sounds like you need a day off or a day at the spa. Self care.
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What would give me the reassurance? That I can go home after this and just do something low-key and normal?
I'm not sure... it's a difficult thing to really say, because you don't tend to really think about these things.
I dunno... I guess maybe just seeing home, or seeing Yuma. That's where I feel most comfortable.
A spa day would be nice, but I don't really have the money to spend on things like that at the moment, especially while I am taking a break from my career too.
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Have you not been home recently? And who is Yuma?
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Oh. I've been home. Everything is fine. Maybe I misunderstood what you were asking.
I guess I was just saying that seeing home or being home is just, I guess, a reassurance of mostly normal home life?
And Yuma is my partner. One second...
*She pulls out her D-Pad and pulls up a photo of a selfie photo of herself and Yuma. You may recognise Yuma as someone who was a student at the island Duel Academy back when you taught there. One of the 'Yuuki specials' who often got himself into supernatural or odd happenings and ended up in the infirmary quite a bit.*
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... Oh.
I hope he hasn't broken any bones recently or tried to use a rocket powered trampoline.
::Oh God. I feel bad for you. Not pity per say but good lord those boys are stress inducing sweethearts.::
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*She gives out a little chuckle.*
Seems you know him.
But thankfully, no, he hasn't. He's managed to keep himself out of trouble more or less, well, other than the trouble I got myself in.
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He was at Duel Academy when I was teaching Psychology there and providing regular continuous guidance counseling.
So. Hrm. And this is just a suggestion, take it if you want it.
Maybe tonight, or whenever, you should try to go into the kitchen, and try and heat something up. Cook something basic. With Yuma with you, if both of you feel up to it. Have him there to start with, and as you feel more confident, try and go back to doing it on your own.
Hrm. I'm also trying to think if there's anything I can recommend on terms of exposure therapy with demons and fiends, besides Shiroko and Ai, but that might be down the line. The people of Makai haven't made much venture onto Earth... And I'm not sure I'd recommend going to Makai itself.
Culture Shock and it might re-aggravate your concerns and fears.
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And yeah, if we find a way to do some kind of exposure therapy with demons somewhere down the line, I'd be willing to look at that. I'd like to learn more, even if it's just through having a conversation with a demon who'd be willing to talk.
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I think that's a smart move. Just treat yourself with love and self respect.
Also. Well. I could offer my experiences as a non-human, but this is meant to focus on being about you. And I'm not sure I'm from the same realm as your lineage.
... Though, it does occur to me, Makai does have an embassy in Domino... but...
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I'm guessing going to the embassy and asking for advice would be a bad move too?
And I'm not even sure exactly what lineage I am or I guess what realm the lineage would be from. I just know that it's insect based.
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::Scratches her cheek.::
That's an extremely loaded... everything. The embassy would be able to help you.
But the sisters given the duty of the ambassadorship. Hrm. Keep them at arm's length, I'd recommend.
The head ambassador might know more on lineage than me, since I haven't checked or read up on Makai for a long time. But.
There's a reason the term Femme Fatale exists.
::Long tired noise.::
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If I ever did decide to go there to seek advice, who would I be asking for there? Or the names of those that run it.
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Vidya and Priti Van Der Aart.
One is a long haired woman with small glasses and a labcoat. The other sister is a short haired blonde in Victorian Gothic.
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Vidya and Priti...
I'll keep this in mind at least, but it's not something I'll be rushing into. I'd rather concentrate on myself for now.
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Would you also be interested in a suggestion on how to safely test any powers you have, Ms. Mizuki?
Again, another tool of sorts, you don't have to take it, but I am offering the equipment for you to help yourself. It would be a goal for us to work towards. Once you feel you've rebuilt the emotional fortitude to face your own nature, of course.
If you wanted to do that.
This wouldn't be hypnosis or anything.
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*She seems curious.*
Well, as long as it's safe, I'm interested. What would this be?
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The building SAI is based in was the Arcadia Movement, a group meant to train psychic humans. Especially ones whose powers interact with Dueling.
As such, because these powers can destroy things, SAI has essentially rooms meant to withstand heavy artillery and explosives.
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It definitely would be handy to be able to practise my abilities in a room like that, where I can't hurt or destroy anything.
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Pretty much! Think of it as a play room for adults and teenagers, or something like that.
... Anyways, did you want to talk about anything else during this session? We have some time left.
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But, thank you Wakahisa-san. I really feel these sessions are going to help me.
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Alright, Ms. Mizuki. Now the slightly boring part: When would you like to schedule your next session?
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I think the same time next week would be fine, if you're alright with that.
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I can easily make the time on my end.
::Claps her hand.::
And remember, try to love yourself. It was nice to meet you, Ms. Mizuki.
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I'll definitely keep that in mind this week.
It was really nice to meet you too, Wakahisa-san. Thank you again.
*She gives Noriko a polite wave, before making her way to the door.*