I guess, maybe, it kind of makes me feel I was living a lie? It's difficult to explain. I spent most of my life living as a 'human', then suddenly I'm thrown this curveball and I'm no longer what I thought I was, but I'm also not sure what I'm supposed to be? Or what I'm supposed to do?
I mean... I know what I want out of life, but I feel bad for some reason that I just want to live a normal life. You know, have a successful career, get married and have a family some day... all those things.
And even though I know there are some examples of positive demon influences in my life, it's difficult not to think of the bad ones too. Ones like my estranged father. Ones I'm scared I'll end up like, even though I know I'm nothing like them.
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I guess, maybe, it kind of makes me feel I was living a lie? It's difficult to explain. I spent most of my life living as a 'human', then suddenly I'm thrown this curveball and I'm no longer what I thought I was, but I'm also not sure what I'm supposed to be? Or what I'm supposed to do?
I mean... I know what I want out of life, but I feel bad for some reason that I just want to live a normal life. You know, have a successful career, get married and have a family some day... all those things.
And even though I know there are some examples of positive demon influences in my life, it's difficult not to think of the bad ones too. Ones like my estranged father. Ones I'm scared I'll end up like, even though I know I'm nothing like them.