I'm scared I'll hurt people.

It took me a while to really control and feel confident with my abilities normally, but in that demon form, it's like they're amplified to a point where I could seriously hurt someone by accident. It's scary thinking I have an ability that could be strong enough to hurt... maybe even kill a person... or cause destruction to things.
I guess I'm scared that I won't be able to fully control it.

And I don't really have anyone who really knows my abilities well enough to guide me.
I had a small amount of training from my estranged biological father a while back... but that was only because he was training to use me. Make me into his personal soldier. He'd broken me emotionally so I followed his word, so it's not something I like thinking back on.

I'm planning on doing some training in the demon form with my partner, in a place where I can't hurt or destroy anything if I slip up... but I'm worried it won't be enough.

Maybe part of me is scared I'll lose my whole identity to it. I feel I don't even know myself anymore or who I really am.

Am I a demon? Human? What does it mean to be both? I'm really not sure of anything.